"bukan seorang yang romantik"
one of the things that Ben told me about him in the early weeks of our introduction about ourselves. I remember at the beginning of relationship, Ben and I respectively act very macho, polite and cool. we talked more about serious things, life, views and discussing about each other perspectives because he is really not that romantic (LOL). the way how he talks makes me think that he was such a very serious person which is very contrary to me and I might die boring.
aku kan jiwang (LOL). but I actually liked that.
I like to know that I have someone who is way more matured than me. Ben is a very forward-thinker person I ever met. he loves to think about so many things and future, constantly thinks and talks to me about what obstacles or problems that might hit in between in life, and we must be prepared for everything, practically asked me to join the club. to be a well prepared person on earth evahh.
and I love to know that, he is actually so sweet.
he just not realize he was doing it. I love how he text me first and check me up every night, I love to hear him playing the guitar and sing a song for me and every time he looks in my eyes, my heart melted over and over again. and what I really love is he gave me attention without me asking, and day by day, our conversation is getting fun. the child in him finally started to shine and I liked that! you know finally to see someone yang serius rupanya gila juga.
recently Ben sang a song for me, Dear God by Avenged Sevenfold which is not really related to us except yes we are much too far way now so basically Ben sang the song to express his hope that God would hold me when he is not around? that is so sweet hahaha.
"we all need the one who can be true to you"
I am glad it was me, and YOU.
sayang this is you without neck hahaha!
within this month, I wrote down some of the sweetest and funny things that Ben had said to me. I did this at first because I have nothing to do but then I found it was hilarious to recall back some of the things. I shorten, these are the ten things that he said to me.
1. I love you so "muchi-muchi".
yes he created that so "muchi-muchi" things. so annoying yet so cutee kan hahaha.
2. sayang, I really miss you.
I miss you too!
3. always think positive.
those day I felt so down. he tried to lift me up, and he did.
4. aku mau jadi Super Saiya.
5. you are the only one I want.
do you know how sexy it is when your lover being so selfish?
6. I want to own a transformer.
I am a proud girl to date a very ambitious boy.
7. sayang, aku baru gunting rambut. handsome kah?
hahaha! I remember my tummy got a little ache laughing on skype.
8. I am very happy with you.
I put this here because I don't want to forget that you are once happy with me.
9. you are so cute.
thank you Ben. you are so sweet.
10. mata aku seksi kan yunk?
hahaha entah lah this boy of mine. I've just got to say yes.
yes because, I love that boy ;)
I love the way how we keep each other updated during this semester break through any existing social apps. it is just feel so good to know the person that you love are always thinking about you too and stay connected! I can't wait to see you in real, Ben. I miss you more than I can say.
happy monthsary. I love you!